today has not been too bad. it is however BLOODY FRUSTRATING having to stay in if all of my housemates are out. i cannot lock or unlock the door. I hate it. They're also being BLOODY STUPID about lending me their keys, so I can get a new one cut...They change their bloody minds about whether they're going out or not in like two minutes because i ask to borrow their keys for an hour. IS THAT REALLY TOO MUCH?!!!!! It is just so annoying. I'm getting really annoyed at myself over it, & know that I shouldn't be. WHAT IS THE PROBLEM WITH LENDING ME THEIR KEYS FOR AN HOUR?!!!!IS THAT REALLY TOO MUCH OF AN INCONVENIENCE. I FEEL SO USELESS, COS I CAN'T DO ANYTHING AT THE MOMENT.
It would make everyone's lives a lot easier...For a start, I'd be able to get in & out without asking someone to let me out/whether they're going to be in when I get back. I would also feel happier about things in general, and therefore be a lot nicer to live with. IS THIS NOT LOGICAL?!! I think it's logical. Give me a key: you will not be bothered by me wanting to get in or out of the house, & I will not be so stressed about not having a key, & will therefore be nicer to live with.
I'm also very upset by the fact that other than James, none of the CathSoc committee (Zosh - I'm afraid I'm not counting u in this!) have volunteered to man the squash stall for a total of 4 hours tomorrow. I AM NOT DOING IT. However much I really should do it, & however much CathSoc may need someone to do it, I am not going to do it. I have a lecture and a counselling session tomorrow. That's quite enough for one day.
I am so tired at the moment, and I'm not sure I see the point in carrying on trying to do all of this stuff...But I guess right now, I should probably be in bed...It'll all be fine in the morning!!!