OK; it's official...My ex is a total fool!!!! He just cannot stop hurting me.

My best friend from home forwarded an email from Tim to me today. He is such an absolute idiot! I think he needs someone to go & pay him some very careful attention and to make him feel loved - I think that he's a very broken young man, & I don't think I'm the person to make it better.

This is some of what he wrote...& what I think of it!

He says: "I know that there is no real hope for me & Lisa to get back together." (I say: TOO RIGHT. YOU'VE GOT NO CHANCE. JUST LOSE THE 'REAL' FROM THAT & I'LL B IN FULL AGREEMENT WITH U!) "Perhaps there were cracks (in our relationship) appearing but I didn't really think anything of it until the end of Easter..." (THERE WERE CRACKS WAY BEFORE THAT. YOU DIDN'T JUST ASSAULT ME TWICE, YOU'D BEEN DOING IT FOR A YEAR! YOU ALSO WENT FURTHER THAN I TOLD PEOPLE...NO, U DIDN'T RAPE ME IN THE NORMAL, TECHNICAL SENSE OF THE WORD...BUT WHAT ELSE WOULD U CALL IT. I THINK THAT WHAT U DID GOES BEYOND SEXUAL ASSAULT!) "...I do still believe that if she had been well...we would not have lost the relationship..." (NO, IF I HAD "BEEN WELL" I'D HAVE HAD THE SENSE TO GET OUT EARLIER, FOOL!!!) "What I found hard was the speed that our relationship went downhill and Lisa's apparent lack of interest in sorting it out or talking any of the issues through with me." ("THE SPEED OUR RELATIONSHIP WENT DOWN HILL?!" WHAT R U ON?! JUST THINK OF WHAT U DID TO ME. DID U EXPECT ME TO WANT TO SAVE SUCH A MESS???!!! DO U THINK I WANTED TO TALK TO U? LET U KNOW HOW BAD U MADE ME FEEL? HOW MUCH IT HURT?! MENTALLY & PHYSICALLY??!!) "Decisions were made without consultation or ignored, both of which caused problems." (YEP, LIKE I'M GOING TO TELL U I'M GOING TO THE POLICE COS OF ALL U DID?! THE ONLY DECISIONS IGNORED WERE URS, COS I WASN'T ALLOWED TO MAKE ANY!!!)"Certainly the weekend we came to stay with you I would say we were fine with each other..."(YEP...THAT WAS ALL FINE...U JUST CARRIED ON AS U NORMALLY DID IN MY BEST FRIEND'S BEDROOM!!! I WAS TOO SCARED TO EVEN CRY COS OF WHAT U'D SAY. I'M SURE U COULD MAKE IT MY FAULT!)"I just hope that she sorts out all of her issues, otherwise I feel very sorry for her future boyfriends."(YES, I KNOW I HAVE ISSUES THAT NEED SORTING. WHAT ABOUT U THO?!! HOW CAN U SAY THAT ABOUT SOME1 U CLAIM TO STILL LOVE?! HOW MUCH MORE HURT DO U WANT TO CAUSE?!)"I had noticed that she almost seemed to be looking for me to make a mistake...like the rest of the men in her life..."(OK, THAT'S RIGHT! BLAME IT ON OTHER PPL! BLAME IT ON ME!!!!!YAY! BLAME IT ON THE FACT I CANNOT RELATE TO MEN. IGNORE THE FACT A LOT OF MY FRIENDS R MEN!!!!! WOOHOO - DOING WELL THERE!) "...She attacked me on a few occasions..." (OK...ONE OF THESE IS EVIDENTLY THE NIGHT U THREW ME ACROSS MY ROOM, B4 THE BISHOP'S BBQ. IN CASE U HADN'T NOTICED, U WERE PREVENTING ME FROM LEAVING THE ROOM. THE OTHER TIME I CAN THINK OF, U THOUGHT I WAS ASLEEP, BUT I WASN'T. I DIDN'T WANT U 2 B DOING WHAT U WERE DOING. I HAD A RAZOR BLADE IN MY HAND & WAVED IT AT U 2 TRY 2 KEEP U AWAY. I THREATENED TO CASTRATE U, BUT DO U WONDER? REALLY?)"..that was a big shock & confused me hugely.."(SO, NOW U KNOW HOW I FELT FOR MOST OF THE TIME WE WERE TOGETHER?!)"We talked such a lot at the beginning about how to end the relationship; everything we decided went out of the window." (YOU EXPECTED ME TO FEEL THE SAME AFTER WHAT U DID?!!! I THINK U RATHER CHANGED THE RULES!!!)

Sorry, I needed to do that. sorry.