Well, I think today is the day for a less contentious blog.
Last night, as usual, 7 of us trekked off to the Cowley Bridge Inn for the Quiz.
For the past few weeks, my team - which has been: week 1 - Rob, Mark, Norris & me; week 2 - Rob, Norris & me; last night - Rob, Dan, Norris & me - has lost to Zosia's team - week 1 - Zosh, James & Ella; week 2 - Zosh, James, Dan and Amy; last night - Zosh, James & Mark - by ONE POINT!!! But, last night was to prove to be our night. WE WON!!! We did not only beat Zosia's team, but we beat EVERY TEAM in EVERYTHING. We did have tie-breakers though. But, we still won. We won the main quiz & we won the half-timers too.
I feel that such a great event needs making a lot of. I am proud of my team. We rule.
Next week is Zosia's quiz. It should be fun. I threatened to take a water pistol, but I don't think I will, cos I think she might get cross. I also think that it would be a bit mean.
Monday, May 31, 2004
Sunday, May 30, 2004
WARNING!!!!!!
IF YOU THINK THAT MY TALKING ABOUT THE WORDING OF THE CREED IS PATHETIC, PLEASE DO NOT READ THE FOLLOWING POST, OR LEAVE COMMENTS ON IT. PLEASE RESPECT MY REQUEST, AND MY OPINION.
I've been looking up stuff on the internet about the wording of the Creed, & whether it should say "for us men and for our salvation" or "for us and for our salvation". It is a matter of great contention, and disagreement, but I do think it's important.
I am not a man, and I do not want to be a man. For this reason, I do not want to declare "for us men and our salvation". If you go to http://www.concordtx.org/opinions/ncreed.htm, then that says quite a lot of stuff that I agree with; especially the bit about language, and the understanding of it. The word "man" is used to mean "men", and excludes hwomen. Why insist on using a word that offends people? Why use a word that does not actually include the whole congregation in a church? Surely, it's nonsense to do so.
When you can communicate the true meaning of Christ's gospel, surely, it's nonsense to drive people away by using language that people HATE! Surely, the liturgy should be celebrated in language that the congregation relate to. What is the reason for not saying "for us and for our salvation"? Is it a fear of change, or just intransigence?
The use of the word "men" implies that women are second class citizens - they are not. Some women aren't bothered by the use of sexist language, but I guess that's their choice, & I may not understand it, but I respect it.
If you don't agree with me, you might find http://www.ad2000.com.au/articles/1992apr1992p20_751.html is more to your liking.
I, however, do like http://taconline.org/1996/1996-01/femtalk.html - it's cool. Also, read some of the Tablet articles on women's issues. You can get them online. They're good too.
It's not impossible to be a feminist and not be dangerous; it's not impossible to be a feminist and a Christian; it's not impossible to be a feminist & a nun!!! I don't think I'm dangerous, I know that I'm a Christian, & I want to be a nun. I am maybe challenging though. But, I like that.
IF YOU THINK THAT MY TALKING ABOUT THE WORDING OF THE CREED IS PATHETIC, PLEASE DO NOT READ THE FOLLOWING POST, OR LEAVE COMMENTS ON IT. PLEASE RESPECT MY REQUEST, AND MY OPINION.
I've been looking up stuff on the internet about the wording of the Creed, & whether it should say "for us men and for our salvation" or "for us and for our salvation". It is a matter of great contention, and disagreement, but I do think it's important.
I am not a man, and I do not want to be a man. For this reason, I do not want to declare "for us men and our salvation". If you go to http://www.concordtx.org/opinions/ncreed.htm, then that says quite a lot of stuff that I agree with; especially the bit about language, and the understanding of it. The word "man" is used to mean "men", and excludes hwomen. Why insist on using a word that offends people? Why use a word that does not actually include the whole congregation in a church? Surely, it's nonsense to do so.
When you can communicate the true meaning of Christ's gospel, surely, it's nonsense to drive people away by using language that people HATE! Surely, the liturgy should be celebrated in language that the congregation relate to. What is the reason for not saying "for us and for our salvation"? Is it a fear of change, or just intransigence?
The use of the word "men" implies that women are second class citizens - they are not. Some women aren't bothered by the use of sexist language, but I guess that's their choice, & I may not understand it, but I respect it.
If you don't agree with me, you might find http://www.ad2000.com.au/articles/1992apr1992p20_751.html is more to your liking.
I, however, do like http://taconline.org/1996/1996-01/femtalk.html - it's cool. Also, read some of the Tablet articles on women's issues. You can get them online. They're good too.
It's not impossible to be a feminist and not be dangerous; it's not impossible to be a feminist and a Christian; it's not impossible to be a feminist & a nun!!! I don't think I'm dangerous, I know that I'm a Christian, & I want to be a nun. I am maybe challenging though. But, I like that.
Saturday, May 29, 2004
Friday, May 28, 2004
Well, today is turning out very much like yesterday. I am sitting here. I am bored. Today, though, I am only waiting for my printer, & they don't have an hour to deliver it. It should be here NOW!!!!
Today is my last day of revising my Theology module. I still have quite a lot to do. But, I can't concentrate, because I am waiting to hear the door...I am waiting for my printer, & I am bored.
I still have a cold. I am going throught the joyous stage of coughing up phlegm. It's not nice. It hurts a bit too.
My new computer is great. It has voices called Synthetic Dave & Synthetic Andy. They're very funny. Synthetic Dave & Rob don't get on. They hate each other.
My screen is huge. It takes over about half of my desk. It's funny.
I got a book in braille with my computer, cos I have special software for visually impaired people. I can't read braille, but I wish I could.
I also have yellow stickers on my keyboard. They're cool. They make everything big so I can see it.
I don't really know what else to say. I'm just bored now, & talking about nothing...
Today is my last day of revising my Theology module. I still have quite a lot to do. But, I can't concentrate, because I am waiting to hear the door...I am waiting for my printer, & I am bored.
I still have a cold. I am going throught the joyous stage of coughing up phlegm. It's not nice. It hurts a bit too.
My new computer is great. It has voices called Synthetic Dave & Synthetic Andy. They're very funny. Synthetic Dave & Rob don't get on. They hate each other.
My screen is huge. It takes over about half of my desk. It's funny.
I got a book in braille with my computer, cos I have special software for visually impaired people. I can't read braille, but I wish I could.
I also have yellow stickers on my keyboard. They're cool. They make everything big so I can see it.
I don't really know what else to say. I'm just bored now, & talking about nothing...
Thursday, May 27, 2004
Well, I'm sitting at home waiting for my new computer. I'm bored. I want it now. It's supposed to be here within the next hour. I hope it is, because I think that waiting to hear the door would distract me from my work.
I've been told to give myself a bit of a break today...So, until my computer comes, I'm not revising. I might put my notes in a folder though, and make it look like my work's really organised, even if that's a total lie. Perhaps I might convince someone.
In a week & a day, my exams will be over. Lots of people seem to be really happy that their exams are almost over. I'm frankly just scared. The fact that they're almost over means that it's even closer to when I have to do them....
There's a big van outside my house. It's yellow. I hope it's my computer. It's quite exciting. It's parked & everything.
The van's gone now. It was my computer, though for some reason, I didn't get my printer. There's 4 HUGE boxes in my lounge. How do you set a computer up?
Now, I'm off to watch my computer being set up; phone my doctor because I've been told to; phone the evil computer people to say "oi! where's my printer?!"
I've been told to give myself a bit of a break today...So, until my computer comes, I'm not revising. I might put my notes in a folder though, and make it look like my work's really organised, even if that's a total lie. Perhaps I might convince someone.
In a week & a day, my exams will be over. Lots of people seem to be really happy that their exams are almost over. I'm frankly just scared. The fact that they're almost over means that it's even closer to when I have to do them....
There's a big van outside my house. It's yellow. I hope it's my computer. It's quite exciting. It's parked & everything.
The van's gone now. It was my computer, though for some reason, I didn't get my printer. There's 4 HUGE boxes in my lounge. How do you set a computer up?
Now, I'm off to watch my computer being set up; phone my doctor because I've been told to; phone the evil computer people to say "oi! where's my printer?!"
Wednesday, May 26, 2004
Well, I disliked James' comment about feminists. Feminists do not make women inferior to men. Feminists can, however, see where women are treated as inferior to men. Open your eyes people!!
How can you say that (in this country at least) women are treated as equal to men when there is still an 18.5% pay gap? That means that it is likely that a woman doing the same job as a man will get paid 18.5% less than him!!! That sucks. They should get paid the same. (Please note that as a feminist, I think they should get paid the same! I'm not one of these really radical feminist jobbies, I just think that everyone should be equal.)
This whole equality thing does involve doing things like removing the "for us men" from the Creed. I know this is a contentious issue, but I really do think that it should say "for us". I know that probably when they're saying the Creed, most people don't really consider the implications of using "for us men" - I guess you could even hold the opinion that either: it's easier than saying "for us men & women" or "for us humans"; saying "for us men" doesn't really say anything about making women inferior. Well, I'm sorry, but it does. The people who agreed on the wording of the Creed are most likely from the same crew who in translating the Bible, have decided that the people in Romans 16:7 were both men. Even John Chrysostom had them down as a man and a woman - probably a married couple, but later translations have them both down as men. There's a bit of a problem with this, in that if they were both men, one of them has a name that didn't actually exist. Junias was not a name. If, however, this person was a women, she would be called Junia, which was a common name. So, methinks that this was a woman, and that there's just a few oddballs out there who don't want to admit that women were so prominent in the early Church, and that Paul - of all people! - wrote to them, and actually seems to have respected them a lot.
But, hang on! Surely Paul was a mysogynist?!!! Well, um, no, actually. Paul was always at pains to address both sides of a partnership, and he also wrote directly to women. He also acknowledged the pretty much equal rights and responsibilites of men & women. It's just these silly interpreters that have taken what he said in the wrong way.
1 Corinthians 7:4 - Whatever authority is given to the man is also given to the woman. No mysogynist there so far as I can see!
Then you've got the infamous passage in 1 Corinthians 11. But, if you look particularly at 1 Corinthians 11:10, you might find a bit of a male bias in the translation. Here, Paul actually appears to be talking of the authority that a woman has. A head covering GIVES a woman authority, it does not take it away.
I guess it does have to be considered that Paul maybe did introduce ideas that could put women down, but he most certainly could not be dismissed as a male chauvanist pig - that title belongs to those who interpreted his writings in such a way.
In the deutero-Pauline & pastoral epistles, there are things that clearly do place men above women...They were all written under a huge influence of patriarchalisation - a process that should be demolished; not even so that it can be replaced by matriarchalisation, because that would be just as bad, and really, through it, nothing would have been achieved.
OK, moving on to another of James' points...Why does the word "woman" make women dependent on "man" - surely these words actually so interdependence. The word "man", is a shortening of "woman" and the word "woman" is a lengthening of "man". Surely, men & women just can't exist without each other, and it has to be accepted that they should all be equal, as they are equal in the eyes of God. Therefore, the movement - feminist or otherwise - for equal rights of all people should be pursued.
How can you say that (in this country at least) women are treated as equal to men when there is still an 18.5% pay gap? That means that it is likely that a woman doing the same job as a man will get paid 18.5% less than him!!! That sucks. They should get paid the same. (Please note that as a feminist, I think they should get paid the same! I'm not one of these really radical feminist jobbies, I just think that everyone should be equal.)
This whole equality thing does involve doing things like removing the "for us men" from the Creed. I know this is a contentious issue, but I really do think that it should say "for us". I know that probably when they're saying the Creed, most people don't really consider the implications of using "for us men" - I guess you could even hold the opinion that either: it's easier than saying "for us men & women" or "for us humans"; saying "for us men" doesn't really say anything about making women inferior. Well, I'm sorry, but it does. The people who agreed on the wording of the Creed are most likely from the same crew who in translating the Bible, have decided that the people in Romans 16:7 were both men. Even John Chrysostom had them down as a man and a woman - probably a married couple, but later translations have them both down as men. There's a bit of a problem with this, in that if they were both men, one of them has a name that didn't actually exist. Junias was not a name. If, however, this person was a women, she would be called Junia, which was a common name. So, methinks that this was a woman, and that there's just a few oddballs out there who don't want to admit that women were so prominent in the early Church, and that Paul - of all people! - wrote to them, and actually seems to have respected them a lot.
But, hang on! Surely Paul was a mysogynist?!!! Well, um, no, actually. Paul was always at pains to address both sides of a partnership, and he also wrote directly to women. He also acknowledged the pretty much equal rights and responsibilites of men & women. It's just these silly interpreters that have taken what he said in the wrong way.
1 Corinthians 7:4 - Whatever authority is given to the man is also given to the woman. No mysogynist there so far as I can see!
Then you've got the infamous passage in 1 Corinthians 11. But, if you look particularly at 1 Corinthians 11:10, you might find a bit of a male bias in the translation. Here, Paul actually appears to be talking of the authority that a woman has. A head covering GIVES a woman authority, it does not take it away.
I guess it does have to be considered that Paul maybe did introduce ideas that could put women down, but he most certainly could not be dismissed as a male chauvanist pig - that title belongs to those who interpreted his writings in such a way.
In the deutero-Pauline & pastoral epistles, there are things that clearly do place men above women...They were all written under a huge influence of patriarchalisation - a process that should be demolished; not even so that it can be replaced by matriarchalisation, because that would be just as bad, and really, through it, nothing would have been achieved.
OK, moving on to another of James' points...Why does the word "woman" make women dependent on "man" - surely these words actually so interdependence. The word "man", is a shortening of "woman" and the word "woman" is a lengthening of "man". Surely, men & women just can't exist without each other, and it has to be accepted that they should all be equal, as they are equal in the eyes of God. Therefore, the movement - feminist or otherwise - for equal rights of all people should be pursued.
Tuesday, May 25, 2004
Well, I finally finished my essay. It didn't take quite so long as I expected, which is all good. It's not the best essay I've ever written, but it'll do, I guess.
We also had the Theology department photos today. I had been given my instructions to be there by the department secretary - despite the fact that I had counselling just before the photos were due to be taken. So, as the dutiful little thing that I am, I toddled over to the Queen's building quad (ha!) to be in the photos. Lecturers having their photos taken has to be one of the most hilarious things ever. We had a good laugh.
We were totally snubbed by one lecturer, who obviously just decided he didn't want to be with us! Another lecturer giggled a lot through the whole photo taking process; another looked bored/asleep; another one grinned inanely as if to say that he'd just disembowled a sheep & was going to have haggis for dinner. Theology lecturers are a weird bunch.
After that, I went for lunch in the Ram with some cool Theology people. We're all going to the Ram again tonight too. I like Theology people. They rock.
Today, I also phoned 2 convents - 1 in Torquay & 1 in Exeter. The sister that I spoke to in Torquay sounded v cool - I'm going to visit them on the 5th of June. The one that I spoke to in Exeter sounded like she may have been a little more "senior", and I think I may have confused the poor love a bit, but I'm going to visit them next Tuesday! I'm soooo excited!
It's the last TROfS today, & Karen won't be there, which is kind of sad...Poor Karen...
Anyway, I'd better be off. Supposed to on campus at 5:45.
We also had the Theology department photos today. I had been given my instructions to be there by the department secretary - despite the fact that I had counselling just before the photos were due to be taken. So, as the dutiful little thing that I am, I toddled over to the Queen's building quad (ha!) to be in the photos. Lecturers having their photos taken has to be one of the most hilarious things ever. We had a good laugh.
We were totally snubbed by one lecturer, who obviously just decided he didn't want to be with us! Another lecturer giggled a lot through the whole photo taking process; another looked bored/asleep; another one grinned inanely as if to say that he'd just disembowled a sheep & was going to have haggis for dinner. Theology lecturers are a weird bunch.
After that, I went for lunch in the Ram with some cool Theology people. We're all going to the Ram again tonight too. I like Theology people. They rock.
Today, I also phoned 2 convents - 1 in Torquay & 1 in Exeter. The sister that I spoke to in Torquay sounded v cool - I'm going to visit them on the 5th of June. The one that I spoke to in Exeter sounded like she may have been a little more "senior", and I think I may have confused the poor love a bit, but I'm going to visit them next Tuesday! I'm soooo excited!
It's the last TROfS today, & Karen won't be there, which is kind of sad...Poor Karen...
Anyway, I'd better be off. Supposed to on campus at 5:45.
Monday, May 24, 2004
Thursday, May 20, 2004
Well, last night, we all went on an adventure. We started off near Duryard, & finished near Lafrowda. It was quite fun.
It was dark though, & I think that only Rob has worked out that I can't see AT ALL in the dark. Finding steps is SUCH a mission. If it's not somewhere I walk regularly, I tend to fall over my own feet, over steps, or into bushes - & yes, I AM DISABLED, but hey. Everyone makes such a big thing of it, but then no-one really actually helps me when I need it. I even have to have an incident form in the library, because I fell down the stairs, because I couldn't see them. That's probably where most of my bruises are from. I've burnt my feet 3 times this week making coffee, because I can't see the cup, & pour water in the wrong place. YES - it is THAT bad....
I've taken 5 beta blockers in the past 2 days - probably not good going, as the most I'm allowed to take in 2 days is 6. I'll probably also take another one before I go to bed, as I don't really want to be waking up with a panic attack. At the moment, the only way to go seems to be to block stuff out. I'm not even feeling the depression that much, I don't think, but blocking stuff seems to be good...
Blocking stuff seems to be especially good when it comes to the fact that I can't see. I try to kind of ignore it or laugh at it, even though I'm really scared & it really hurts...I can't even go near really bright lights any more, because they give me migranes...I also don't know whether I'm going to lose my sight altogether or not...What am I going to do if that happens? I want to be a teacher, & I'm not sure that anyone in their right mind would employ me to teach secondary school if I can't see. Also, how am I going to live on my own? I find it hard enough now...Burning my feet 3 times in a week isn't really something to be laughed at...What do I do if I drop a hot pan on my feet...I don't think I'd escape with scalds then. I'm also scared about crossing roads. I hardly use my eyes at all to do that any more, because I just cannot see what's going on. I use my ears instead, but there are so many different types of engines that I find it really hard to tell how far away a car is, or how fast it's going. I don't want to be using stuff that screams "I'm disabled!" but I'm not sure how to be safe if I don't...
The only places I actually cope well with going to are going to campus & maybe the Chaplaincy, because I do it a lot. If I'm going to other places, I get really scared, & don't do too well with roads & stuff. I also tend to fall down/up steps in new/strange places. It's so frustrating, because I can't do anything about it, & the "I'm disabled" thing is kind of a joke, & it seems that people forget that I actually do have huge problems with some things. It seems to be that people see that I try to get on with my life & do "normal" stuff, so therefore I must be coping with it, & no one stops to think that maybe I'M NOT!!!!!!
It was dark though, & I think that only Rob has worked out that I can't see AT ALL in the dark. Finding steps is SUCH a mission. If it's not somewhere I walk regularly, I tend to fall over my own feet, over steps, or into bushes - & yes, I AM DISABLED, but hey. Everyone makes such a big thing of it, but then no-one really actually helps me when I need it. I even have to have an incident form in the library, because I fell down the stairs, because I couldn't see them. That's probably where most of my bruises are from. I've burnt my feet 3 times this week making coffee, because I can't see the cup, & pour water in the wrong place. YES - it is THAT bad....
I've taken 5 beta blockers in the past 2 days - probably not good going, as the most I'm allowed to take in 2 days is 6. I'll probably also take another one before I go to bed, as I don't really want to be waking up with a panic attack. At the moment, the only way to go seems to be to block stuff out. I'm not even feeling the depression that much, I don't think, but blocking stuff seems to be good...
Blocking stuff seems to be especially good when it comes to the fact that I can't see. I try to kind of ignore it or laugh at it, even though I'm really scared & it really hurts...I can't even go near really bright lights any more, because they give me migranes...I also don't know whether I'm going to lose my sight altogether or not...What am I going to do if that happens? I want to be a teacher, & I'm not sure that anyone in their right mind would employ me to teach secondary school if I can't see. Also, how am I going to live on my own? I find it hard enough now...Burning my feet 3 times in a week isn't really something to be laughed at...What do I do if I drop a hot pan on my feet...I don't think I'd escape with scalds then. I'm also scared about crossing roads. I hardly use my eyes at all to do that any more, because I just cannot see what's going on. I use my ears instead, but there are so many different types of engines that I find it really hard to tell how far away a car is, or how fast it's going. I don't want to be using stuff that screams "I'm disabled!" but I'm not sure how to be safe if I don't...
The only places I actually cope well with going to are going to campus & maybe the Chaplaincy, because I do it a lot. If I'm going to other places, I get really scared, & don't do too well with roads & stuff. I also tend to fall down/up steps in new/strange places. It's so frustrating, because I can't do anything about it, & the "I'm disabled" thing is kind of a joke, & it seems that people forget that I actually do have huge problems with some things. It seems to be that people see that I try to get on with my life & do "normal" stuff, so therefore I must be coping with it, & no one stops to think that maybe I'M NOT!!!!!!
Tuesday, May 18, 2004
Hmmm....Well, my weekend wasn't too great. I did go to see LT & the Eurovision party was good, but.....
Have not been a v well bunny. Have had 32 panic attacks since Saturday night...Now have beta blockers from the doctor though.
Even had to leave early after the quiz on Sunday, cos I was getting all tight chested & stuff. Obviously, the other team were v smelly, but the main reason Rob & I didn't sit with them was that I couldn't breathe, & then he walked me home when I got to the "I'm gonna cry" stage.
Rob stayed the night at my house - it's a looooooooong walk back to his house from mine, & I'm not good at being all alone after panic attacks & stuff. They make me feel like I'm gonna die.
Have not been a v well bunny. Have had 32 panic attacks since Saturday night...Now have beta blockers from the doctor though.
Even had to leave early after the quiz on Sunday, cos I was getting all tight chested & stuff. Obviously, the other team were v smelly, but the main reason Rob & I didn't sit with them was that I couldn't breathe, & then he walked me home when I got to the "I'm gonna cry" stage.
Rob stayed the night at my house - it's a looooooooong walk back to his house from mine, & I'm not good at being all alone after panic attacks & stuff. They make me feel like I'm gonna die.
Friday, May 14, 2004
Hmmmmmm...Don't really know what to say today. Tried to blog yesterday, but it wouldn't publish, & then lost my REALLY long entry. I was not a happy bunny.
The guy in Oxford was of no help at all, & as I suspected, my new glasses really do not make much of a difference. People here have been great though, & have done lots of helpful things.
Going to my doctor on Tuesday to ask her to refer me somewhere for a 2nd opinion.
Meeting with the Plymouth Chaplain next week to talk about nun-stuff...I'm actually quite excited about it all.
Should have my new computer soon! My LEA have finally got themselves into gear, & have agreed to spend lots of money to make my life easier.
Have done no revision since I went to Oxford. The fool of a man left me feeling a bit poo, & I haven't been able to concentrate too well for the past couple of days...Ah well.
The guy in Oxford was of no help at all, & as I suspected, my new glasses really do not make much of a difference. People here have been great though, & have done lots of helpful things.
Going to my doctor on Tuesday to ask her to refer me somewhere for a 2nd opinion.
Meeting with the Plymouth Chaplain next week to talk about nun-stuff...I'm actually quite excited about it all.
Should have my new computer soon! My LEA have finally got themselves into gear, & have agreed to spend lots of money to make my life easier.
Have done no revision since I went to Oxford. The fool of a man left me feeling a bit poo, & I haven't been able to concentrate too well for the past couple of days...Ah well.
Tuesday, May 11, 2004
Wow...Blogger has changed the format for logging in & posting...I like it.
Am trying to organise things like Committee meetings with Tessa...She has suggested a meeting every other week, which I think is good...I'm not as keen on the whole 6:30 on Wednesday thing though...I already have enough of a rush to get out of my house to be at the Chaplaincy by 7:00 on Wednesdays, but I think 6:30 would be silly...I'd never have time to eat...Poor me!
Am down to 8 painkillers a day today, so can now drink again! Yay!!! How cool is that. I couldn't drink at the pub quiz on Sunday, so drank 2 pints of coke instead. We came 2nd again, but it was a hard quiz, but the "proper" quiz guy should be back next week!
CathSoc are having a quiz tomorrow...Zosh & I have written it, so it'll be great. Everyone should come.
I'm going to Oxford tomorrow. I have to get up at 5:30am. I'm not looking forward to that. Would anybody like me to phone them at 5:30am tomorrow?!
Clever me! I emailed my Greek Philosophy lecturer, as I can never find him & I missed his lecture last Thursday, cos of going to A & E, & I'm missing his lecture tomorrow cos I'm going to Oxford. I also really wanted to know my essay mark...I got 65!! I am sooooo proud. My other essay for that module was 76, so I'm hoping I do well in the exam too, cos I think I could get a v good mark for that module.
I'm going to speak to Paul later about vocation-y things. It could be fun...Please pray though, cos I'm also sort of nervous!!!
Am trying to organise things like Committee meetings with Tessa...She has suggested a meeting every other week, which I think is good...I'm not as keen on the whole 6:30 on Wednesday thing though...I already have enough of a rush to get out of my house to be at the Chaplaincy by 7:00 on Wednesdays, but I think 6:30 would be silly...I'd never have time to eat...Poor me!
Am down to 8 painkillers a day today, so can now drink again! Yay!!! How cool is that. I couldn't drink at the pub quiz on Sunday, so drank 2 pints of coke instead. We came 2nd again, but it was a hard quiz, but the "proper" quiz guy should be back next week!
CathSoc are having a quiz tomorrow...Zosh & I have written it, so it'll be great. Everyone should come.
I'm going to Oxford tomorrow. I have to get up at 5:30am. I'm not looking forward to that. Would anybody like me to phone them at 5:30am tomorrow?!
Clever me! I emailed my Greek Philosophy lecturer, as I can never find him & I missed his lecture last Thursday, cos of going to A & E, & I'm missing his lecture tomorrow cos I'm going to Oxford. I also really wanted to know my essay mark...I got 65!! I am sooooo proud. My other essay for that module was 76, so I'm hoping I do well in the exam too, cos I think I could get a v good mark for that module.
I'm going to speak to Paul later about vocation-y things. It could be fun...Please pray though, cos I'm also sort of nervous!!!
Friday, May 07, 2004
Ouch! It hurts...
My neck is VERY painful - I guess I was warned it'd probably get worse. I'm totally drugged up on the painkillers. 16 of them a day. They make me drowsy & leave me a bit out of it. But, they relieve the pain, so I guess it's not all bad.
I have a yellow overlay, so I don't have to read off evil white paper. I think I'm also gonna get a reader in my exams - yay.
CathSoc Committee handover meal tonight - hopefully it'll be fun...I can't drink though, cos of the painkillers. Ah well - coke it is!!! Hehehehe
I may have a job soon........
My neck is VERY painful - I guess I was warned it'd probably get worse. I'm totally drugged up on the painkillers. 16 of them a day. They make me drowsy & leave me a bit out of it. But, they relieve the pain, so I guess it's not all bad.
I have a yellow overlay, so I don't have to read off evil white paper. I think I'm also gonna get a reader in my exams - yay.
CathSoc Committee handover meal tonight - hopefully it'll be fun...I can't drink though, cos of the painkillers. Ah well - coke it is!!! Hehehehe
I may have a job soon........
Thursday, May 06, 2004
Well, if it was going to be anyone, it did have to be me...
I sustained an injury at the CathSoc fun night. My neck made a baaaaaad cracky noise, & got very painful, & I was sick, & everyone got worried, & eventually Zosh took me to A&E. We were there for 3 hours.
I had to have xrays & everything. I'd never had an xray before, & was kind of nervous, especially when I had to take my glasses off; the xray lady was very nice though, & she held my hand so I didn't walk into anything while I went across the room, & she gave my glasses back to me before I had to walk again!
My xrays were OK, but I've done something not so great to a big muscle called the trapezius (I think) in my neck. It hurts quite a lot. I have many pain killers.
The doctor was very nice to me last night too. I was well looked after by the medical people & Zosh!
Zosh told me about infant motor development last night. There was this guy who thought that the development of motor skills was due to genetic stuff. There were other guys who thought he was wrong, & that environment has far more to do with it - for example, not everyone can write or drive, but those are both motor skills. They did experiments on cats & things.
I told Zosh the titles of all of the plays that I have to read for my Greek & Roman Drama module; I didn't tell her all of the stories though, because we sang 'chick chick chick chick chicken' instead. We broke the tiredness barrier, & just got to the stage of finding everything funny.
When we left the hospital, the dawn chorus was starting, we only had about 2 hours sleep. Zosh made sure that I was in bed & comfortable with a hot water bottle before she got to bed too. This morning, she made sure that I got to the doctor OK. I love you Zosh!!!!!
James bless him kept sending texts to Zosh to check that I was OK. He said he should have come to the hospital too, but it could have got a bit silly...I may have a double bed, but you really shouldn't try to put too many people in it.
I'm OK today. I have lots of painkillers; they help.
I saw the doctor this morning. She was very nice, and made sure I was all OK. I have to go back in a couple of weeks, but that's OK - I don't mind going to see the doctor.
I was going to have my hair cut today, but I wouldn't have been able to bend my neck back so that I could have my hair washed, so I'm now having it done next Thursday.
I went to the library with Adeleh today; she's great. She's really helpful, & very sweet. She finds all of my books for me, and everything. We're going to the library again on Monday.
I managed to do some revision today; I was pretty impressed! Yay!
I sustained an injury at the CathSoc fun night. My neck made a baaaaaad cracky noise, & got very painful, & I was sick, & everyone got worried, & eventually Zosh took me to A&E. We were there for 3 hours.
I had to have xrays & everything. I'd never had an xray before, & was kind of nervous, especially when I had to take my glasses off; the xray lady was very nice though, & she held my hand so I didn't walk into anything while I went across the room, & she gave my glasses back to me before I had to walk again!
My xrays were OK, but I've done something not so great to a big muscle called the trapezius (I think) in my neck. It hurts quite a lot. I have many pain killers.
The doctor was very nice to me last night too. I was well looked after by the medical people & Zosh!
Zosh told me about infant motor development last night. There was this guy who thought that the development of motor skills was due to genetic stuff. There were other guys who thought he was wrong, & that environment has far more to do with it - for example, not everyone can write or drive, but those are both motor skills. They did experiments on cats & things.
I told Zosh the titles of all of the plays that I have to read for my Greek & Roman Drama module; I didn't tell her all of the stories though, because we sang 'chick chick chick chick chicken' instead. We broke the tiredness barrier, & just got to the stage of finding everything funny.
When we left the hospital, the dawn chorus was starting, we only had about 2 hours sleep. Zosh made sure that I was in bed & comfortable with a hot water bottle before she got to bed too. This morning, she made sure that I got to the doctor OK. I love you Zosh!!!!!
James bless him kept sending texts to Zosh to check that I was OK. He said he should have come to the hospital too, but it could have got a bit silly...I may have a double bed, but you really shouldn't try to put too many people in it.
I'm OK today. I have lots of painkillers; they help.
I saw the doctor this morning. She was very nice, and made sure I was all OK. I have to go back in a couple of weeks, but that's OK - I don't mind going to see the doctor.
I was going to have my hair cut today, but I wouldn't have been able to bend my neck back so that I could have my hair washed, so I'm now having it done next Thursday.
I went to the library with Adeleh today; she's great. She's really helpful, & very sweet. She finds all of my books for me, and everything. We're going to the library again on Monday.
I managed to do some revision today; I was pretty impressed! Yay!
Tuesday, May 04, 2004
Today's been OK. Went to lecture, & counselling. Counselling was rough.
Tonight, I went to lecture & seminar...I have Karen's pens. If I write it here, I might remember that I have them, & take them next week, & give them back to Karen when she gets back.
I'm really rambling today, but never mind; it can just be a short blog.
Tonight, I went to lecture & seminar...I have Karen's pens. If I write it here, I might remember that I have them, & take them next week, & give them back to Karen when she gets back.
I'm really rambling today, but never mind; it can just be a short blog.
Monday, May 03, 2004
Well, last night, Amy, James, Rob, Zosh & myself went to the Cowley Bridge Inn to do the quiz. It was good. We got 48 out of 60 & came 2nd. I was impressed with us.
James & I spent a lot of time laughing & teasing people. Ah well...The things that we do.
Amy won us a box of Celebrations in the raffle. We ate them all in about 5 minutes. We thought about giving back the box, but then didn't.
After the quiz, we went back to Rob & James' house & watched Ivor. Ivor's great. Amy left a bit early, cos she likes to sleep, so that she can work hard the next day. Zosh & I stayed & watched more Ivor. James & I really appreciated Ivor. Zosh didn't. Then, Rob started dissing Ivor too. I thought he liked Ivor, but he said that it was getting tedious. So did Zosh. We watched til the end tho. I have now seen the whole Ivor video. I feel great cos of that. I see it as an achievement.
I still haven't taken my mood brighteners yet today, I will take them soon though. It's not affecting me as much as it used to though. I seem to be coping pretty well without them so far today. I'm proud! It must mean I'm getting better! Yay!
I stayed at Zosia's last night, cos it was about 1:45 when we stopped watching Ivor. It's too late/early to walk home at that time. I got home at 12:00 today instead.
I'm going to re-read my comedies today. I'm actually quite proud at how well my revision is going.
I also have to find a school to work in for two weeks after exams. I like schools. I'm going to be a teacher!! Yay!!
I'm hungry...I need food....
Mmmmmmmm food......
James & I spent a lot of time laughing & teasing people. Ah well...The things that we do.
Amy won us a box of Celebrations in the raffle. We ate them all in about 5 minutes. We thought about giving back the box, but then didn't.
After the quiz, we went back to Rob & James' house & watched Ivor. Ivor's great. Amy left a bit early, cos she likes to sleep, so that she can work hard the next day. Zosh & I stayed & watched more Ivor. James & I really appreciated Ivor. Zosh didn't. Then, Rob started dissing Ivor too. I thought he liked Ivor, but he said that it was getting tedious. So did Zosh. We watched til the end tho. I have now seen the whole Ivor video. I feel great cos of that. I see it as an achievement.
I still haven't taken my mood brighteners yet today, I will take them soon though. It's not affecting me as much as it used to though. I seem to be coping pretty well without them so far today. I'm proud! It must mean I'm getting better! Yay!
I stayed at Zosia's last night, cos it was about 1:45 when we stopped watching Ivor. It's too late/early to walk home at that time. I got home at 12:00 today instead.
I'm going to re-read my comedies today. I'm actually quite proud at how well my revision is going.
I also have to find a school to work in for two weeks after exams. I like schools. I'm going to be a teacher!! Yay!!
I'm hungry...I need food....
Mmmmmmmm food......
Sunday, May 02, 2004
Well, it's not actually that long since I got back from Church. I liked Mass today. There was a pastoral letter from the Bishop - he writes better ones than the ex-archbishop of my diocese did...The new guy (Vincent) is quite cool though.
Rachel cooked today. It was good. She cooked tuna with black olives & pasta & stuff. She also gave us a Maltese sweet-thing called figola (I think!).
After lunch, we were chatting about CathSoc stuff...Some of it seems to be getting so organised that it's literally REGIMENTED! I mean, I know different people work differently, & I guess I'm probably finding it a bit tough that last year's committee were being criticised...We worked REALLY hard last year, & I think that we laid down some good foundations...Our CathSoc "hardcore" does seem to be slowly expanding (which is good, because "hardcore" rule!!), & I don't think you can rush these things...Thinking about it, last year, as a committee, we did achieve quite a lot, & I'm very proud of it...At the handover meal on Friday, I think that I should say something to that effect!
I'm very upset because we're having a games evening without Monkey Ball - I like Monkey Ball, & when it's projected onto a wall, I'm on an equal footing with everyone else - which does seem a rarity! (Yes James, I'm talking about my eyes again!!!) Even I can see these things when they're projected onto a wall! It's great, because I can actually play the game...There's lots of things I can't do, because my eyesight really IS that bad, so finding things I can do is always really exciting. Hopefully, when I go to Oxford, they'll give me some stronger glasses, which should help a bit!
Spontenaity is definitely a good thing sometimes. Our Wednesday park visit was pretty spontaneous, & that was great.
I've nearly finished re-reading all of my tragedies for Greek & Roman drama. I'm proud. Now, it's just the comedies, & I've read about half of those, so I'm doing well!
Rachel cooked today. It was good. She cooked tuna with black olives & pasta & stuff. She also gave us a Maltese sweet-thing called figola (I think!).
After lunch, we were chatting about CathSoc stuff...Some of it seems to be getting so organised that it's literally REGIMENTED! I mean, I know different people work differently, & I guess I'm probably finding it a bit tough that last year's committee were being criticised...We worked REALLY hard last year, & I think that we laid down some good foundations...Our CathSoc "hardcore" does seem to be slowly expanding (which is good, because "hardcore" rule!!), & I don't think you can rush these things...Thinking about it, last year, as a committee, we did achieve quite a lot, & I'm very proud of it...At the handover meal on Friday, I think that I should say something to that effect!
I'm very upset because we're having a games evening without Monkey Ball - I like Monkey Ball, & when it's projected onto a wall, I'm on an equal footing with everyone else - which does seem a rarity! (Yes James, I'm talking about my eyes again!!!) Even I can see these things when they're projected onto a wall! It's great, because I can actually play the game...There's lots of things I can't do, because my eyesight really IS that bad, so finding things I can do is always really exciting. Hopefully, when I go to Oxford, they'll give me some stronger glasses, which should help a bit!
Spontenaity is definitely a good thing sometimes. Our Wednesday park visit was pretty spontaneous, & that was great.
I've nearly finished re-reading all of my tragedies for Greek & Roman drama. I'm proud. Now, it's just the comedies, & I've read about half of those, so I'm doing well!
Saturday, May 01, 2004
Prayer group last night was good; I was late, cos I wasn't sure whether to go or not. We did some music practising last night too, & it was cool. We learnt some new stuff!
We saw Lopes last night ("we" being Rach, Zosh & me) - we walked Tessa home & went in to see her room. It was great.
I did lots of work yesterday too. I'm proud of myself.
I have a meeting at the disability centre on Wednesday - to talk about exams & stuff...it should help. I'm also meeting my library helper person, she's called Adeleh.
Don't know when I'm getting my computer...Hopefully it'll be soon!!!
My ex-housemate is coming next weekend - oh dear. I think it'll be a weekend for avoiding my house. Maybe it'll be sunny, & I can go somewhere nice to revise. ARGH!!!!!!!!! Help us all!!
We saw Lopes last night ("we" being Rach, Zosh & me) - we walked Tessa home & went in to see her room. It was great.
I did lots of work yesterday too. I'm proud of myself.
I have a meeting at the disability centre on Wednesday - to talk about exams & stuff...it should help. I'm also meeting my library helper person, she's called Adeleh.
Don't know when I'm getting my computer...Hopefully it'll be soon!!!
My ex-housemate is coming next weekend - oh dear. I think it'll be a weekend for avoiding my house. Maybe it'll be sunny, & I can go somewhere nice to revise. ARGH!!!!!!!!! Help us all!!
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